AN ANGEL WHO LEFT HIS WINGS FOR ME

I have an angel, for me who left his wings…
And he has no idea, how much happiness he truly brings…
He brightens up my day, with smiles and laughs…
Helps me to remember, all the blessings that I have…

His face so cute, he’s sweet, soft and pure…
Sometimes he can be irritating, sometimes he’s demure…
He tries so hard to please me, and to do what is right…
He gives the warmest of hugs… from morning until night…

Every person who has known him sees the light within his soul,
I know that in this whole wide world, he has a special role…
He’s helpful, and considerate to everyone he knows,
The light in him brightens, as my angel grows…

When he sees someone is sad, it opens up his heart…
He wants to do all that he can, he wants to do his part…
He squeezes out the sorrow, makes me forget the pain,
He shows me the sun, when I am hiding from the rain…


I know god must love me, he showered me with grace,
I just knew this instantly, when I saw my angel’s face…
In the very moment he came to my world,
I knew he was much more than just a white pearl…

He is my sunshine, with a sweetness that does’nt end,
I never thought he wud be so sensitive, and my best friend…
Although he says, I am the reason why he tries his best,
Right now my angel is away, giving his greatest test…

When god entrusts to you an angel, who left his wings for you,
Shower him with love and care, with everything that you do…
He knows god made him, and that he trusts me with his care,
And I make sure to make time for special moments with him to share…

And when at night he finally says good night and goes to sleep,
I thank god for this angel, who is mine, and for me to keep…
Coz I have this little angel, for me who left his wings,
And while reading this, he still doesn’t know, how much happiness, he truly brings!!!

THAT GIRL IS'NT ME

Tears bottled up

she's going to explode.

Trying not to let them fall,

or let emotion show.

Full of anger and sadness,

it's tearing her apart.

She tries not to show it,

but it's killing her heart.

She's hurting inside..

there's no one to talk to.

They say "oh she's just a teen",

but they don't know what she's going through.

She tries to explain,

but they just don't understand

tears in her eyes,

on the pillow they land

She goes to bed crying

and wakes up to a whole new day,

hoping it will be better,

but finds out it's all still the same

You couldn't understand,

even if you tried,

the reason that she cries at night,

the reason she tries to hide.

Don't try to come close,

she'll just push you away,

there's something that you don't know,

words she couldn't say.

She tries with all her might,

to be herself around her friends,

but something doesn't feel right,

a broken heart that could not mend.

She pretends that she's strong,

a tough outer shell,

but there's always something wrong,

she's trapped in her Hell.

She wants to speak,

to tell you all the truth,

but she is way too weak,

broken without any glue.

Painfully shy;

the bird that couldn't fly.

Dying on the inside;

a body without a mind.

Maybe if you took the time,

find the person she tries to be.

Maybe if you looked inside,

you'd realize she is me.

GIRL IN THE MIRROR

I look in the mirror and see a girl,

Who is staring back at me.

I don't know who she is,

Because she's not the girl I wana be.

She puts a smile on,

While inside she is falling apart.

She says, "I'm okay",

As pain fills her heart.

She pretends not to care,

As everyone slowly walks away.

She hides behind her mask,

And pretends to be okay.

She is scared to open up,

And call someone her friend.

They all turn out the same,

And never really care in the end.

She is scared to let people close,

It always ends up as heartache.

She decides to trust someone,

But it always ends up as a big mistake.

She feels like a stranger in her own home,

Like she doesn't even belong.

She tries the best she can,

But it always seems to be wrong.

She freezes up at the word "success",

People throw it around too much.

Her muscles constrict,

As she is afraid to be touched.

She has ideas for the future,

Hopes and dreams of her own.

But she doesn't hold her breath,

Because disappointment is all she has ever known.

She asks, "Why am I never good enough",

"Why am I always second choice"?

People tell her she's got to stand up for what she wants,

She's got to find her own voice.

I dont know who I wanna be,

It's never so much clearer.

But the fact of life is,

I'm only the girl in the mirror.

WHEN DEPRESSION TOOK OVER

Sitting in the corner of my bed

Having this frustration in my head

Trying to unleash all the pain inside

Thinking of how this has come to an end

I try to do everything just to please you

Even in bad times, I still believe you

I did everything to make it work

Even if you're just making it worst

Day and night, I've waited for a call

or just a text or a knock on my door

But all I got is this aching heart

and this sleepless tears all through out the night

I can never regret the feelings I have

but I have to move on and got to have my pride

I may not appear, but I'm always here

coz I feel You're so far yet so very near.

I get a funny feeling,

it comes from deep inside.

I get all mad and angry,

wanting to go and hide.

My frens calls it depression,

my dad says it's just me.

But the thoughts and feelings,

no one will ever be able to see.

Some say I'm psycho,

some say I'm just weird.

they say I'm a different person,

and the old me just disappeared.

I get really edgy,

I want to do sumthng reckless real bad.

Then I get a headache,

followed by feeling sad.

I dont wish I could get help,

I wish it would go away.

Maybe if I keep praying real hard,

i think it will some day.

SOMETHING MUST BE WRONG WITH ME

Something must be wrong with me

with all this hurt inside,

always bursting with anger,

and never any pride.

Something must be wrong with me

if all I do is cry,

I can't stop this pain..

all I want to do is die...

Something must be wrong with me

if my emotions run wild,

all this confusion does

is make me feel like a lost child.

Something must be wrong with me

with all these terrible things,

always there and never gone

depression is what it brings.

Something must be wrong with me

if I can't stop these thoughts,

all this pain does is

turn my stomach in knots.

Something is truly wrong with me

when I think there's only one way out,

"Let this pain end sumhow,"is all my heart will shout.

litsening to the silence of the lonely streets

All night I told myself that I should get some sleep,
But all that my eyes could do the whole night was weep…
At first I thought I may be going crazy…
But that was only until all around me went hazy…

The walls of the room seemed to be darker tonight,
The room seemed to have grown smaller…
The ceiling would definitely come down on me today,
As my loneliness seemed to have grown taller…

I wanted to leave these four walls behind me,
And step out into the crowded streets,
But lord knows…was it my luck, or god’s wish…
There wasn’t a soul on the streets to greet…

The voices in my head, now hammering inside me,
Even the thoughts in my mind betrayed me…
I wanted a speeding car to run me down and do justice…
But I couldn’t even walk in the middle of the road, my cowardice!

I thought I saw her, at the crossing of the mall,
I thought she noticed me, but she didn’t look at me at all…
Was she really there, or did I just hallucinate?
I kept walking in sync to the silence of the lonely streets of my fate…

I kept strolling down the path and suddenly realised.
I was surrounded by so many of those…
Did they just appear from nowhere?
Or were they around from befoe?
Were they actually there, or did I just hallucinate?
I still kept walking in sync to the silence of the lonely streets of my fate…

The streets suddenly seemed crowded, but I still felt alone,
I should be hearing their voices around me, then how come I don’t?
All I hear, is the voices n my head,
All the thoughts, that for many years no one read…
Were they really my thoughts or did I just hallucinate?
I still kept walking in sync to the silence of the lonely streets of my fate…

I turned again at the end of the road,
The alley was very dark and dim,
But that didn’t seem to bother me at all,
Because the silence wasn’t my call…

All I wanted was the silence to take over me,
And to take me to the darker side…
Suddenly my puffy eyes were blinded by a flash,
First I flew a few feet up, then plummetted with a crash…
Sounds of glass cracking, screeches and screams for some time,
Then it was me lying in a red puddle of grime…
Slowly then the pain left me all alone…
So did my thoughts ans the voices of that tone…
Without these companions, I felt incompetent and incomplete..
But I felt blessed to at last hear the silence of these lonely streets…

BROKEN

       

 

a few pieces of a glass vase, a few glass bangles, a chain..

a pair pf high heels, marching through a lane ..

these r the things that hurt me so..these r the things, broken a while ago..

 

a few strands of black hair, the longest grown nail,

The pretty silver bracelet, that was bought on a sale..

These r things which hurt me so..

These r things broken a while ago..

 

a beaded neckpiece, a pink school bag,

a cute little toe ring, a school captain tag,

These r the things.. Which me hurt me so..

these r the things.. broken a while ago..

 

a blue shimmery hair clip, with earrings to match,

a gifted silver belt, and a door without a latch..

These are the things that hurt me so..

These r the things broken a while ago..

 

 

 

These things were broken, never mend

Still I tried fixing them, I tried to tend..

Till I realized about more important things,

More important than beads, clips n rings…

 

A love filled heart, a thought filled mind,

A caring nature that one will never find..

These r the things that r broken now..

These are the things more important now..

 

My “so-much-trust”.. my “so-much-faith”..

The incompetent belief in my mate..

These r the things that are broken now,

These r the things more important now..

 

 

 

 

 

As we grow up we realize, things that broke were close to the heart,

We learn to live without them; we learn to stay apart…

The hurt has now healed, on my heart that tender…

The broken heart has now been mend,

Its only my high heels that ill remember!!!

 

MY SAVIOUR

Since time immemorial, he’s been there for me..

Since always n ever, a savior he’s been…

He’s so tall, he’s dark, and he’s oh! So brave..

When all forces loose, the day he can save!

He’s so chivalrous, bulky and smart,

He’s always alert, he’s always on guard!

He doesn’t care abut himself, he only cares about us..

He carries on his orders, without any fuss...

He’s dressed in green n black, he comes from any direction

Its scary how sometimes, he’s only viewed as protection..

The last time I saw him, from a chopper he jumped...

He faced bullets for us... after which his heart didn’t pump..

He had gone there to kill, n that’s what he did..

The evil he had shot..Their souls themselves did

He faced the worst form of humankind

But only our safety was on his mind...

He had vowed to keep us warm n safe

N that’s what he did, that man so brave!

The blood that stained his body, was a slap across our face

It was the evil’s way of saying “uve lost the race”!!

He still survived that shot n more,

He kept fighting till his soul went sore..

Ant at last he was victorious, n so elated..

He lost his breath then and there...But we still waited..

No, he never rose again; he’s permanently on a break,

And thanks to him that suddenly..The whole nation is awake..

Yes! Hr taught us the value of our nation,

Yes! He taught us to fight without hesitation!

I don’t know which religion he followed,

I don’t know whether he knew any of us..

I don’t know how much he went through pain,

I don’t know for his family.. Was it a loss or a gain..

No, he didn’t know me..still he died for me..

No, I didn’t know him..still I do believe..

To that brave, chivalrous man, this is my tribute..

To those N.S.G COMMANDO ‘S, this is my salute!!!!

I MISS U

missing u

long will be my nites..
difficult will be my days...
missing u is so not rite,
so... my heart says.....

my mind says "let go"
my heart feels so sore!
u left in such a hurry...
i needed at least a day more..

i cudnt say wott i had planned..
i cudnt say, "i love thee"!
my tears cudnt stay jammed..
so i had to let them free!

i wud have cried for hours n hours...
not seing the main reason..
the future's gonna be ours!
happines will be r only season!

but my heart still cries out..
ur name's always my shout!
i hide my tears, while taking ur name,
but the pain in my heart remains the same..
although i manage to look carefree..
there's no one who misses u more than me!!!!!

MY DREAM GUY

HE WOULD “STOP” WENEVER HE LOOKED AT ME..

HE WUD WHISPER MY NAME UNDER HIS BREATH,

HE WUD BE DRIVING THE CAR OF MY DREAMS..

N OFF MY FEET I WUD BE SWEPT…

HE WUD BE AS CHILLED AS THE MOON AT TYMES..

SUMTYMES AS WARM AS THE SUN…

WUD BE REALLY “TOUGH” N “STRONG” ON THE OUTSYD..

BUT AS SOFT AS CARAMEL INSYD….

HE’D HAVE CHOCOLATE BROWN EYES…HE’D HAVE EYES THAT SHYNE…

WETHER DARK OR FAIR, TALL OR SHORT…THE CHOCOLATE-BOY WUD ONLY BE MYN!!

HE WUD BE SMOOTH WITH HIS MOVES…

WUD GET EASILY I THE GROOVE…

HE WUD COMPLETE MY SENTENCE.. WEN I WUD JUZ SAY “LISTEN..”

WEN I WUDNT SMYL FOR SUMTYM..MY SMILE HE’S START MISSING…

HE WUD OPEN DOORS FOR ME,HE WUD PULL OUT A CHAIR…

HE’D BE A PERFECT GENTLEMAN..THAT’S SO BLOODY RARE!!

HE’D BE CHIVALROUS, N SUMTYMES N ARM-CANDY!

HE WUD GET ME TOTALLY HIGH…WITHOUT A DROP OF BRANDY!!

WHERE IS MY PRINCE CHARMING?MY HEART USED TO CALL…

“WHER ART THOU”? M SURE I’LL MEET U..BUT TELL ME HOW??

ONE FINE EVENING… THE WINDS HURLED..

N I FOUND MYSELF.. ON TOP OF THE WORLD..

SUMTHING INSYD ME.. TWISTED N CHURNED..

SUMONE CAME UP FROM BEHIND.. N I SUDDENLY TURNED..

“THERE” WAS MY CHOCOLATE BOY.. RYT “THERE”!!

SHINING EYES, N A SWEET SMILE HE WEARS!!

“JESUS”! HE WAS RYT HERE.. ALL THIS WHILE!

WHILE I WAS LOOKING FOR HIM.. ACROOSS A MILE!!

“CHRIST”!! AT LAST I GOT MY DREAM GUY…

HE’S MY BEST FRIEND, MY CHOCOLATE BOY.. N MY SMALL FRY!!!

WEN I FOUND U

IVE WAITED A LIFETYM FOR U IT SEEMS..

I SEARCHED THE WHOLE WORLD.. IT WAS TUFF!

LOOKING FOR TRUE LOVE N HAPPINESS..

THOT OF GIVING UP.. COZ IT WAS REELY RUFF!

SO MANY WRONG FACES.. SO MANY WRONG EMBRACES.

SEARCHING FOR THE HEART.. WHICH WUD BE THE ONE FOR ME!

I THOT UR THE ONE FOR ME.. COZ UR EYES ARE TRUE..

I THOT IVE FOUND LOVE.. WEN I FOUND U!

U COMFORT ME IN THE TYMES OF STORM..

IN CHILLY TYMES.. U KEEP ME WARM

I WUD BE SO LONELY WIDOUT U..

FEELING DEPRESSED, DOWN N BLUE..

I KNOW LIFE’S BEEN A TUFF JOURNEY..

N IT MAY GET HARDER STILL..

BUT ILL ALWAYS HOLD UR HAND..

THIS LIF CAN TEST R WILL!

FIRST THING IN THE MORNING..

MY THOTS THINK OF U ALRYT!

DON’T BLAME ME FOR THAT…

I DREAMT OF U ALL NYT!!!

WENEVER I DON’T C U FOR LONG…

MY MIND STARTS TO CHURN..

WENEVER I C U CRYING HONEY..

MY HEART STARTS TO BURN!!

MY EXCITEEMNT RISES..

WEN I TAKE UR CALL…

I SIT N SMILE…

FOR NO REASON AT ALL!!!

I WANNA BE WID U FOREVER,

N GAZE AT UR LOVING FACE..

AND DREAM OF OUR LOVING LIFE TOGETHER..

LOST IN UR WARM EMBRACE!!!!

PAIN-KILLER

When I said I need you now,

You took me by the hand,

Stood by me in the hour of need..

Taking tym to understand.

N u knew I cudnt stand alone…

I needed ur hand to hold..

The warmth of you friendly touch,

In my world which had gone so cold..

You were a perfect friend to me..

And held me day by day

And wid ur loving hand in myn..

I was sure to find the way…

Wen im sad.. ur by my side..

Wen im scared u feel my fear..

U’r always a real support,

Whenever I need u.. ur always there..

Mostly ur annoying…

Sumtymes ur cute nd sweet..

Sumtyms wen ur totally broke!!.. I enjoying.. saying.. “its my treat”

V look gud together..coz v both r insane!

Coz I call u an ass.. n u call me a pain!!

Sumtymes, sumhow.. u act like a dude…

But wen u tickle me.. ur very rude!!

Ur much more than I expected u to be..

N uch more than a best friend to me!

Ur sumtymes mature.. at tyms like a child..

On ur kind of music.. u go really wild!!

Thank u for the songs sung..

And the flowers sent..

But now I think its tym…

That this poem shud end!!

To end this poem.. theres no gud tym

But im running out of words n rhymes

Well you shud know.. being my friend..

That our friendship’s never going to end..

U never try n leev.. or run away..

U usually listen to whatever I hav to say..

But if u listen to me.. u’ll only gain..

Coz im ur only “KILLER”

N m ur only “PAIN”!!!!!!!

IT'S NOT U DI

The Sun shines so bright every morning,

But the light isn’t yours…

The bright morning comes up everyday,

But the sight isn’t yours…

Somethingwakes me up in the morning,

But the voice isn’t yours…

The afternoon comes then,

The presence isn’t yours..

Someone hears me out in the evening,

The hearing isn’t yours…

In the evening I go out and enjoy,

The company isn’t yours…

The night time brings loneliness for me

The hand to hold isn’t yours

The blanket covers me somewhat..

But the warmth isn’t yours…

CONFUSED

MY MIND STARTS TO SHAKE WEN UR IN SIGHT..

MY MIND IS FILLED WID WONDER,

MY HEART IS FILLED WID FRYT..

WEN WILL THIS FEELING STOP?

WEN THE HELL DID IT START?

HOW CAN I LITSEN TO MY MIND?

WITHOUT BREAKING UR HEART?

 

YOU SAY U HEARD BIRDS AT NYT..

HOWCUM I HAD NO SUCH SYT?

U SAY UR IN LOVE.. N VERY SURE!

SO HOWCUM FROM ME.. U WANT NO MORE?

I DON’T KNOW WOT TO DO..

I DON’T KNOW WHOM TO BELIEVE..

I DON’T KNOW WHOM TO TRUST…

THERE IS NO ABSOLUTE-RELIEF!!

 

CONFUSION IS ALL THAT I HAVE IN MY MIND..

OH.. I WISH MY LIFE I CUD REWIND!!

WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN?.. TO BOTH OF “US”?

AS OF NOW.. THERE IS NO “US”!!

 

WHATEVER HAPPENS FOR GUD OR BAD..

THIS IS MY LIFE.. CANT LET IT B  SAD..

THIS IS WHAT I SHUD GET.. N DESERVE IN THE END…

U AS MY SWEETYPIE.. N MY BEST FRIEND!!!